Still Hanging On

~ King Ben's Grandma

My last post about the parrots was my attempt to focus on the positive things in my life. I was determined to change my viewpoint. Life wasn’t better and I couldn’t change any of the problems but I could change my attitude.

The parrots moved to a different part of the city.

I know, I know… They didn’t move just to spite me. They’ll be back. They roam all over the city, going where the food is. It sure felt personal at the time.

It was kind of the last straw for me and I had to pull back completely. I stopped almost all of my online stuff, I stopped interacting with friends, I just stopped.

Things are still tough, nothing has changed. I’m not trying to force a “happy face”. There is some change coming. Ben starts school on Wednesday. (I know, weird huh?) Anyway, with him back into his school routine and him being away giving me some quiet time, I’m hoping to regather myself. Maybe this headache I’ve had for over two months will ease off.

I’m slowly poking my head out of my cave and reconnecting with my online life. I missed all my friends but I know everyone understands that sometimes one has to take a break and step away. It’s still hot. I’m still poor. New stresses have been added and none have been taken away. But, but, but… I don’t feel quite as fragile. I’m not as frustrated, angry or generally BLAH. 

I’m not gonna force happiness but I’m not going to quit looking for it either.

13 thoughts on “Still Hanging On”

  1. I’ve been thinking of you! Counting down the days in my head until you and Ben return to a schedule. The weather will be changing soon to hopefully give you some relief there, too. Financial stress, Fibromyalgia – You are on my mind! I went quiet over the summer as well. Everything was overwhelming. The kids, the schedule (or lack thereof) – everything NON-STOP, no breaks. And that was all I had to sit on me to make me disconnect. I am glad you wrote a post – glad to hear from you. And I hope those parrots find it in their little hearts to come back and visit you! 🙂

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    1. Those dang parrots 😕 They’ll be back. It just felt like “really? Et tu Brute” Summers and breaks are always rough. I know you’ve still got weeks to go so I’ll be sending thoughts & prayers your way💌💌🙏. That picture of Declan with his kissy face made my day! I looked at it several times. He’s so serious about it.😁
      I’m very thankful to have another parent like you that understands the everyday stresses of life with these precious kiddos! 💖💐

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  2. Yes, yes, yes! 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼. Girl, once again, we are parallel in many ways 🌷💐🌷

    I don’t know what to say; I never quite have the magic words that make things better. But what I *can* say is this…

    You’re amazing ❤️❤️
    Sometimes life sucks, and you’re totally entitled to whatever you feel at any given moment 💐💐
    You’re never totally alone; personally, I will stand by your side until the day I die, (and probably come back to haunt you (in good and fun ways) after that) 😉😉

    I value your presence and cherish your friendship 💚💙

    This, too, shall pass 💞💞

    I’m so happy to hear that you feel stronger. Keep going 🌷🌷

    You rock!!! 👏🏼👏🏼🌺😎🐉

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    1. No magic words needed😘😘
      I love the idea of you haunting me, just not in the bathroom please👻🚽🛁🚫I pinky swear to haunt you if I go first😂
      You and all my WP friends/family have always been so supportive!
      Thank you, thank you THANK YOU! You help balance out a lot of the bad stuff life throws at me!☯🍀🌺🌸🌼🌷💞💕💖 I’m thankful the universe put us in each other’s lives!!😍😘

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  4. You are absolutely right, forcing a happy face isn’t good for anyone. If you need to retreat, that’s what you should do. Just make sure that it is what you need, don’t stay away because you’re afraid to show your unhappy face. If you need to bitch and moan (and goodness knows I like a good moan myself) go right ahead, we’ll listen. If you need time away from it all, take it. I can only say what everyone else is saying, we’ll still be here when you come out again.
    Also, are there perhaps other birds around for you? Maybe some wild flowers 🌷🌻? Bees 🐝? 🐛🦋🦄🌳🌞💖

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    1. There are a lot of birds. When it’s quiet they all visit my backyard. The quiet is the problem. There hasn’t been any.
      It’s okay, there is light at the end of the tunnel. Summers and breaks are always difficult. I always try to prepare but life likes to throw monkey wrenches into my preparations. I’ve finally reached the point of laughing at the absurdity. If my life was a reality show, no one would believe it was real. All that can’t *really* happen to one person.😧😕
      Thank you for all your thoughts and support! It really really does help to know others are sending positive energy, prayers, hugs…whatever!💌💖🕊🐦🐞🐝🌸🌻🌺🌹🌼🌷

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    1. Yes indeed. Always towards better! Even if I fall into a crevice or two along the way. At least I can honestly say my life is never boring.😋 Thank you so much for the loves! Sending some right back to you!!💌💌💌

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    1. Your concern and caring thoughts mean more to me than I have words to express. Thank you so much! It’s wonderful to find good, caring, lovely people like you out in the world.
      I’m hanging on. I might get knocked down but I’m too ornery to *stay* down 😝
      💌💌🌷🕊

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